He smiles, but in Los Angeles a smile amongst competitors is never what it means.

So few people who do porn for so many years make it when matriculating back into the real world. The recidivism rate for porn performers rivals that among career criminals for the same basic reason. It's all they know.

Bragging about winning porn awards is like showing mommy what you did in the toilet.

Me, shooting smut in the back of a speeding van with two white girls--bald cunts, panties around their ankles--is a game of "Pin the Felony on the Negro" waiting to happen.

What must it be like for a woman to live with power over men rivaled only by God for the first third of her life, build her identity over her looks, only to feel it slip away as time tumbles by? Feel the shift in how people treat her, as though getting old is a contagious affliction?

I hand him the single greatest work of fiction known to man: my resume.

The things left unsaid to people we care about, and the void those unspoken words leave, often have more impact than what is said.

The camera's greedy lens sucks my image through it and splashes my pixilated ghost across his face in pale blue light.

Viagra, Valtrex, Valium... you fuck enough strangers, you're taking a blue pill with a "V" on it.

Many seasoned porn whores develop an ability to check out at will. The girl, on her back has unlit vacancy signs where her eyes once were.